I've had something of an epiphany recently and I thought I'd blog about it. This is very personal to me, and not something I usually talk about.
I've always struggled with my weight, and although I've never said to a doctor "why can't I lose weight?" I have often asked myself "why can't I stick to a diet?". In the past I've dieted and lost weight only to regain it, and more (despite promising myself I wouldn't) later.
This past year has been something of an extra struggle due to the lack of energy etc since my aneurysm, and I've gained back all I'd lost previously. I was planning on going back to Slimming World but I wasn't too keen on the group since my friend Beth stopped being our SW consultant.
Anyway, I had bought a book about carb addiction, which was beginning to make perfect sense to me in that the more carbs I had, the more I craved them and my insulin levels were all over the place. I was looking forward to starting to eat low carb, but I couldn't quite get my head around the diet plan.
Then I saw my birthday party pictures and nearly had a heart attack! Well, I thought I looked pretty good in them.... from the neck up. I was appalled at how big my belly had got because although I know I'm overweight, I don't feel like an overweight person, strange as that may seem. In the same way, I don't feel my age either. My brain obviously likes to play tricks on me, ha ha. I knew I had to act fast.
At the same time, a blogger I have followed for some time said she was doing a low carb diet, which piqued my interest. She chose to do the Cambridge Diet and has done really well in a very short time. I had often thought that my last resort might be Lighter Life, because I know several people who've done very well on it, but I knew just drinking shakes every day would not be enough for me. I was also afraid of what would happen as soon as I started to eat "real" food again. Believe it or not, I have even contemplated having a gastric band fitted but ruled that out as too drastic.
As it happens, I had read about a similar programme a couple of years ago, and filed it away in my memory for future reference. It's called All About W8. A couple of weeks ago I took the plunge and ordered my first two weeks of meals. I didn't really want to talk about it sooner, because I've been there before - told everyone and then looked stoopid when I dropped out.
Anyway, the good (great!) news is that I've already lost....... 14 lbs. Yes 14 lbs in 14 days. I know, I know, I've always subscribed to the wisdom that a sensible weight loss is 1 to 2lbs a week. But I've got a LOT to lose and I ran it past my GP first. He was happy for me to try, and I'm beyond thrilled with the results.
I've chosen to do the 50/50 plan, which means I have two Mealpaks a day (breakfast and lunch), plus 3 snacks (made up of protein + fruit together), and then in the evening I eat a sensible meal with the family - chicken/fish plus 3 veggies but no carbs. I also drink 3 litres a day but then I was doing that since my op anyway as the brain needs hydration.
The strange thing is that I don't feel particularly hungry, and, stranger still, I don't feel the least inclined to cheat. I'm only cheating myself if I do that, and, well, I can't explain it except I have no desire to cheat. I can even sit next to people eating biscuits/crisps/sweets without being bothered. This is SUCH a new feeling for me, I can't begin to tell you, as I've always had cravings before.
Now for the epiphany: since I've started the diet I've felt better and better. In fact, I realised after a few days that my joints hardly ached and weren't so stiff. This is the stuff of miracles, I tell you, because my psoriatic arthritis has been extremely bad, especially since I can't take my old anti-inflammatories any more on doctors' orders. Just after I realised this, I came across an article that mentioned a link between certain foods and inflammation. It suddenly dawned on me that I hadn't had any of the foods mentioned for over a week. Coincidence? I tend to think not!
So there you have it, I'm losing weight, feeling great, eating proper food yet learning portion control. I am so excited about how it's going and long may it continue. Two dietitians have told me in the past that my general diet is great, if only I could cut out the snacks, so I'm confident I'll be able to do the maintenance.
Am I finally turning a corner? I hope so....
(Note: I would not recommend this type of diet for people who only have a little to lose. Sensible diet and exercise is the way to go).