Much as I love technology, I really hate it when it goes wrong. To wit, my iPhone: I finally decided to update the software on it, and thought I was safe because it was backed up. How wrong could I be. The darn thing updated to the latest version of the software, then promptly did a factory reset. Grrr! The music I bought directly via the phone is ok, as are the apps, but I lost all my contacts, all my passwords and cookies, all my photos and, worst of all, all my calendar entries! That thing is my replacement memory and if it doesn't beep to tell me to do something, I'll forget it.
Talking of my bad memory, I really thought I was getting better, but today I went and left a pan on the stove again - completely forgetting I was in the middle of making myself some lunch. And my conversations with the boyf all seem to go something like this:
Me: Did you know about this programme/article in the paper/piece of news from my family/bill that needs paying?
Him: We talked about that last week.
Me: We did? No we didn't. Did we? (with rising incredulity).
Him: Yes. You said... and I said.... and then you did.... (giving me details).
Me: No, but I'm getting better, I remember lots more. Surely we didn't talk about that - I'd remember.
Him: .....
It must be so frustrating for him, and I'm slightly bewildered myself because I don't know what I've forgotten until someone asks me about it, if that makes sense. It's not very nice to feel I might be blissfully unaware that I'm a fruit loop. In fact a friend teased me gently about it the other day, when we were talking about her mother-in-law who has dementia, saying that it's like a CD playing on repeat: once she's covered all her topics of conversation, the record starts all over again. She reassured me I'm not really like that, but the point is, I wouldn't even know if it WAS, would I? It's like the twilight zone or something.
I'll now go off and read some previous posts and realise I've mentioned this, oh, like 50 times or something. Sorry :(
On a more upbeat note, Claire discovered a cool app that I've now downloaded too. It's called Dailyburn and comes from the website of the same name. It's just the thing I've been looking for: a tool where I can keep a tally on my food intake, exercise, weight loss and much more. Because, yes, this coming year is about treating my body like a temple. I hate that I put back on the weight I'd lost, but obv I've had some other things on my plate and took my eye off the ball for far too long. Anyway, I'm really impressed with the "lite" version of the app, so I'll probably be upgrading to the full version when I have some dosh. I'm a very visual kind of person, and I like the graphics. Here's an example of today's exercise log, which was actually one of my most active days in a long while because I had to go back to the GP and didn't have the money for the bus. Before my aneurysm I wouldn't have thought twice about walking there and back but it's a struggle now.
I also really like the nutrition log, where you get a clear picture of how much you've had in the way of carbs/protein/fat, both in numbers and with a cool pie-chart, along with a water tracker to ensure you have your 8 glasses of water.
Well, that's it for now. I hadn't realised quite how late it was....
Hey sweetie
Stop being so hard on yourself. It does not do you any good. You are ALIVE !. Focus on that please. Best wishes to you and your loved ones in 2011. Gros bisous. Moi
Posted by: [email protected] | 12/31/2010 at 01:09 AM