As I sit here, pondering the past year and what lies in store in 2013, I have to say I love where I am right now. My relationship broke down in 2011 although I only moved out in early 2012, and so much has happened since this time last year. Although of course I'm not happy our relationship had to end I am such a believer of the old adage "things happen for a reason" that I can't find it in me to remain upset. Of course I was devastated when it happened, but since then I've pulled myself up straight and decided to look to the future. Such a dazzling one it is too.
A funny thing has happened along the way. I have discovered the meaning of true love. As a mother, I immediately discovered what unconditional love was when I had my daughter, but this is different. The man I spent 13 years of my life with remains a very special part of me. He will always have a little piece of my heart. They say "if you love someone, set them free" and oh my, is that true! I knew without a doubt, from day one of our relationship, that I would never stand in the way of him fulfilling any of his dreams or ambitions. I naturally hoped that we would walk side by side into the future, but I knew that I didn't OWN him and that one day this might happen. Don't get me wrong, I wasn't consciously thinking "he will leave me some day" - I just feel we are all individuals with our own paths to follow in life, and as I love him dearly I want him to be happy. I know a little bit about what is coming up in his future and I am excited for him.
Why am I opening up about this now? Well, a New Year seems as good a time as any to share this with you: please believe me when I say life is too short to be bitter or hold grudges. I do not have any room in my heart for hate and I refuse to live my life thinking what if? or why me? I know I won't always be smiling and happy about everything that happens in my life, but I CAN decide how I'm going to deal with the aftermath.
Maybe, just maybe, my words will resonate with someone and if that happens and just one person feels uplifted, then the pain I have experienced will not be in vain.
Love one another!